ZZZZzzzzz......

That's the sound of sleeping.

This is the sound of me sleeping:
zzzz.... uncomfortable..zzzzz...
Get up and check on the dog.
Get up and check the doors are locked.
Ugh! Hadleigh is awake again.
Get up go give her a bottle.
No, let her cry herself back to sleep.
No, no give her the bottle.

Getting up. Checking. Giving Bottle.

Back to sleep.
Did you get things ready for tomorrow?
I don't want to go to work!
Is Jordon ok?
Ugh! He stole all the covers again.
Ouch.. what is that? Oh his knee
zzzz... Oh no! Did I set my alarm

Check alarm.

Back to sleep.
I wonder if Jordon is sleeping.
Hmm.. yep he is.
Is Jake home?
What is today? Tuesday? Yeah, he should be.
Did I get stuff out for dinner?
Oh well. They are grown men they can cook if they are hungry.

Check alarm one more time.

Lay down.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz


That, is how I "sleep". I really need a more relaxing life!!

Crazy days

I started working on Thursday. I cried on my way to work. On Friday, I did way better but I was only at work for 4 hours so it went fast! I did a lot of sitting and kinds being in the way. I am excited to get done with training so I can actually do something! I am NOT excited for training cuz it's FULL TIME!! I don't know what I am going to do without seeing my little Belle Belle!!! 3 weeks... I can do anything for 3 weeks right?!?!

These last couple days have been crazy! Being away from home is making my home-sick. I miss my daughter. A lot. I mean way way more than I thought I would. I miss her giggles. I miss her silly faces. I miss her running around half naked. I miss her hugs and her cuddles when she wants to read a book. I miss her playing with my hair. I miss her "helping" me with laundry. I miss her.

I miss my dog. Yes, he stays in the kitchen most of the time BUT is still miss cuddling him. I miss when he licks Hadleigh's face after she eats.

I miss my husband. I miss taking naps with him while Hadleigh and Titan sleep. I miss our cuddles on the couch in the middle of the day. I miss going to lunch whenever we feel like it. I miss being silly with him and hearing about his "day" at work.

I, however, do NOT miss all the chores that I would do. I do NOT miss tantrums or screaming. I do NOT miss puppy pee on the floor.

I guess it's a hard trade when you go back to the working world.

I guess I should explain

I guess I should explain why I am getting a job.

I am excited and nervous and a little sad and worried!! It's like having a baby all over again! Just kidding... but kinda! I am excited to start getting paid for working but I am nervous that I won't pick up on things as quickly as I used to. I am sad and worried about my little Hadleigh Baby!! I don't want to leave her, even though it's only for a few hours 5 days a week but still.. I am with her ALL day! And I am worried that I won't be able to cope with leaving her. Hadleigh will be fine.... she is so independent that she won't even notice I left!!

I got a part-time job working for Wells Fargo as a teller! I think that I will like the job a lot! And my supervisor is really nice. I hope everyone is really nice!!

Ok, so now, why I even applied...
I worry so much about finances. Way way WAY more than I should. Jordon's job is secure and he works hard and he works over-time when he can. I just want us to have our savings back up and I want us to have wiggle room each month. Also, with our new car payment I worry that things will get really tight when Jordon goes to school in the fall. No more over-time. No more extra money. You see what I mean.

Some comments have also been made to me by various people that they think that I do nothing all day. Or that they feel like they do more than I do and that they always have to clean. These comments hurt. I mean they really really hurt. I work hard all day and all night! My "job" may not be as physically taxing as theirs but mine is still hard. Taking care of a house, a puppy, everything that comes with a house (ie: laundry, sweeping, moping) a husband and a baby is hard!! I love taking care of my loves and I love spending all day with them and I am sad that I won't be able to anymore but I hope that the persons who have made these comments see how much I really do everyday. I hope that I am appreciated a little more.

Are those bad reasons? Stability and appreciation? I hope not. And I hope that those of you reading this post will be supportive of my choice. I think that a mother's main "job" should be raising the children they have BUT I also think that when tough times come you gotta do what you can to make sure that your family is still supported. Staying at home is a luxury these days and I am happy that I was able to this last year!

I love my kid and I love my puppy and I will be happy to return home permanently again!

I'm Proud to Be an American

I want to start off thanking those wonderful men and women who serve this country and protect my families freedoms and rights. Thank you to their families for the sacrifice you make. Thank you to those who have given their lives.

Because of you I feel safe.

Because of you I am free.

I am free to voice my opinion.
I am free to chose my leader.
I am free to practice my religion.
I am free to marry who I chose.
I am free to be me.

Because of you my daughter can be safe.

I want to especially thank my friends Matt Seamen, Shaun Clark and Chad Davis for their honorable and courageous service in the Marine Corps these past 4 years. You are my hero's. The things which you have shared with me and the things that you have seen and experienced are incredible. They are are incredible but they are also something that I would never want you to have had to experience. Thank you for being willing to fight for this wonderful country that I call home. The men, women and children which you have saved will be forever in your debt. The men, women and children which you protected will be forever in you debt. Thinking of your dedication brings tears to my eyes. I am forever grateful to you and to your wives and your parents and your daughters. I am most happy that all 3 of you got home safely and that your services is no longer needed. Thank you boys and welcome home!! F.R.I.E.N.D.S forever.. matt you know what I mean!

Now on to something more uplifting! We had a great Fourth weekend.

We went to a really really small town in Ut. called Grouse Creek. My whole family was there and lots of my extended family. We went to a parade, an honorary program which Hads and I were involved in, a yummy dutch oven lunch, a rodeo, visited my Grandma's original house, went to a dance, did fire works and went to church!! We then came home!! Goodness it was busy for 2 nights and 3 days!! Here are the pictures of the G.C. adventures!!

Us in the Living room.

G-ma's original house

Jordon and I looking in the red brick house

The support beam is going to crumble

Wall paper from the 40's

My love in the doorway

Hadleigh playin at the play house!

G-pa sleepin during the rodeo

Dad opening the blinds

Hadleigh helpin Pops

When we got back Sunday we went to the fireworks in Pocatello. We met up with The Mauger's, Ladd's sister and fam, and Spencer and Jackie. Hadleigh slept through the fireworks in G.C. so we were very excited to see her reaction. It was freezing cold but so worth it! Here are pictures from that adventure! These are my favorite!! Sorry so blurry, took them with Jordon's phone.

This weekend was so fun! I am happy that I got to have all this fun before I start working! I got a part-time job at Wells Fargo as a teller. I am really really going to miss my baby but she will be with family so it will be better. I haven't gotten the exact shift info but I am hoping that it will be only 4 hours a day so I can spend the majority of it with the loves of my life. More on the job to come.... I promise!

We love ourselves some Vitamin D!!

We went swimming today!! It was so fun! Jordon worked last night so he wasn't able to come and that was sad but Hadleigh did have fun and I got tanned so it was a good day.
Hadleigh slept til 9 today and because of that I was able to get everything ready to go before she needed to be held and cuddled. It was so nice to be ready to go and then just relax with Hadleigh til the pool opened. It was little misses first time at an outdoor pool and her second time swimming ever! She did great and it wore her out and at 8 she wanted to go to sleep!! Yay for swimming!

I took these pictures for Jordon and thought that you would also enjoy some deliciousness!!

I can hear the bells...

Saturday June 26 one of my best friends is getting married and I am so excited!!! I will be posting pictures soon of Mr. and Mrs. Travis Zmak! So happy for you Crystal!

Ok.. update... I forgot my camera but I did steal a picture from my friend! Here is Mrs. Zmak and her father!

Brings a smile to my face....

These men bring a smile to my face almost daily. They are amazing and if you are one of the lucky people that know them you know why. Thanks again for being strong yet gentle, strict yet fun, quiet yet funny and worthy Priesthood holders. I am lucky to be linked to them some way or another for eternity.

I don't have a picture of David and Sammy saved on the computer so I couldn't put one on here but David is the father that Sammy's birth-father could never be. Because of him Sam has a worthy, smart, protective, strong, responsible, amazing father. Someone who he can look up to. Thank you David!