Mama is my new name and I like it!!

Mother's Day is a great day. 
It used to be bitter sweet but as time has gone on it has gotten more sweet than bitter.

Every Mother's Day I think of sweet baby Samuel and the days we spent together in the hospital.  I think of the day he was sealed to Alexandra and David and his 2 loving brothers.  I think of the great 5 years we've had growing together as extended families.  I always get amazingly wonderful movies of him for Mothers Day.  I watch and I cry.  I cry tears of joy.  I get to be so involved and still Alex makes sure that I get to see what she sees every day.  I know that he was meant to be with the Prices.  I know that they have become the parents I never could have been.  I am so thankful for Alex and the amazing mother that she is.  She is what I aspire to be.

Jordon had to work but he left me a sweet note in the bathroom to see when I got up to get ready for church.  He also spoiled me with 2 dresses! I love summer dresses.  He knows the way to my heart is clothes!!  He also sent me sweet texts all day to make me feel loved and wonderful.  When he got home we snuggled the rest of the night which was just what I needed.  I needed to be held by my husband.

Hadleigh was a peach! She made Sunday great! She came to Y.W. with me b/c her friends Hayzel and Jack came with Gramma Janice!! She sat quietly on my lap and then held hands with H and J for a little and then sat back on my lap.  She cuddled me all day and gave kisses.  She called me her best friend and said I was " gorgegeous"  I love being her mom.  Sometimes I complain about being home all day, being bored and feeling like I have no friends.  But I really do love being with her.  I love seeing her grow and know that she loves me.  She is my best friend too! And I wouldn't change that!

Hadleigh and I went to Church and then came home and had some yummy shortcake.
Since Jordon had to work we went to my parents house and had shish-ka-bobs.
It was a great day filled with my family and my Filiagas.  Hallie even got to talk to Jared!
I love the Filiaga family.  They ARE my immediate family.  And I love Jared.  Even with him being on a mission I still love him.  Hadleigh loves him too!  She "writes" him "me-mails" all the time.
I have become more and more grateful for my immediate family and the good things they see in me.
I have been struggling with self esteem and remembering that I am a good person and they always make me feel worthy.  They give me words of advice on how to handle situations and tell me that I am better than what I think.  I am so thankful for my mother.  For her strength, for her tolerance, for her bravery, for her kindness, without these I wouldn't be where I am today.