Wednesday, November 20, 2013

We're excited to announce...

I'm Pregnant!!!

We are all so excited to be expanding our family!

After trying for over a year and the horrible miscarriage experience we had last year and some other medical issues I had experienced I thought that Hadleigh was our only one, unless we adopted.  I was sad but coped fairly well and early with whatever Heavenly Father had planned for me I was okay with it.  I just wanted me to be healthy and for Hadleigh to have the best mom.  

I thought that I had gotten a bug from Hadleigh since she had started preschool and one of the kids was sick but I was wrong.  Jordon mentioned taking a test since I was a few days late (which was my new normal) and I thought why not?!  Although I  was worried since I was fighting my first yeast infection that the test would some how be affected... is that weird?!

Took a test and the first positive was really light.  I decided to wait to take the second until the next morning and that one came back super strong and bold! I was excited!!! I found out right before Valeigha had Maizlee and it was so hard keeping it a secret!

We waited until we passed not only the 12 week mark (miscarried at 12 last year) and same date (Nov 6)
before we told our siblings and waited until my appointment today to tell the world!!  I was nervous since I was pregnant about the same last year so Jordon was really good at calming all my nerves.

Anyways, we are super excited and can't wait to see the babe at our next appointment.
Hadleigh is sooo excited about being a big sister.  I have been searching for a "big sister" tee so if you see one in a size 4t or 5 grab it for me! 

When we first told her she was wanting a little sister but we were trying to get her to be excited about maybe having a little brother too and now she thinks I'm having twins!! Which we really wouldn't mind.... so
here's to a healthy baby (ies).

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

A Month of School has finished

Hadleigh has been in school for a month now!!  She is learning so much!  I wish that I would have known about the school last year so that she could've taken Miss April's 3 yr old class.  She is already pulling the " I can't remember what I learned today" card.  But she will start telling me little by little through out the rest of the day.  When she is playing she will sing a song or two that she has learned in Preschool.  Her favorites include Chewy, Chewy, Bubble Gum, I love it, I love it and All through the town.... I can't remember what the real names of the songs are. 

I am so happy that she is enjoying school.  She is slowly making friends and writing better.  She can definitely write her H's and A's and L's but we need a little more work on the other letters.  Good thing she likes writing.

She went on her first field trip on the 1st to the Fish Hatchery in American Falls.  She thought it was so cool... and so did we!  Jordon had the day off and came with us.  We sure love when he gets to spend time with us.  They have some fish they call Magnum and the kids got to feed them and when they threw the food in they jumped out of the water!!  It was so fun to watch her giggle so much.  But she and Jordon got fish water on their clothes and in their mouths!!

Her next field trip is on the 23rd to a pumpkin patch and both Jordon and I can go again!! It will be her last trip until next year but it's going to be a fun one!  And I'm helping in her class for the Halloween party!!

October is going to be an eventful and exciting month!!

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

The first cut is the deepest....

Well technically I am not cut or heart broken but I am a little sad.  I am learning today to let go of my baby a little more. This is a slow process for me since she may be the one and only child we have.  I feel like each little thing is a huge thing!  

Last night when I was brushing her teeth I was telling her that she started school today and she got a little teary eyed.  She then asked me " Are you going to leave me there?" and tears came running down her face.  I said "Of coarse not.  It will only be for a few hours honey." And gave her a big hug.  She was ok after that.

But in all honesty it feels like I left her there forever.  And it's only been a half hour!!!





Thursday, August 15, 2013

H-Dizzle

I can't believe that its taken me over a week to post about little miss and her dr appointment.  I was late scheduling it b/c we were having so much fun with family and I had just forgotten it until her actual birthday and then her party.... anyways we were lucky enough to get her in quickly.  Dr. Brandon was booked til the end of August but we saw his P.A. which is amazing. I figure that if our Dr. trusts him enough to employ him then so should we.  She had to get some shots to start preschool in a couple weeks but she took them like a pro!  Didn't move or scream or cry at all... she just held still and after the first one she whispered to me "Mom,  it hurts." I said " I know. You're almost done."  The nurse then did her 2nd shot which Hads watched go in!!  Brave, Brave girl.  I am so proud of her!  She wont need shots until she is in 2nd grade!!!

She went from this: 8.3 lbs 21 1/2 in





To this: 37.4 lbs 41 in




Monday, July 29, 2013

Somebody turned FOUR!!!!

Hadleigh turned 4 on Thursday the 25th.  She is becoming quite the young lady.  She loves pink.  She loves dresses, even though I make her wear shorts underneath.  She loves animals.  She loves princesses.  She loves fairies and playing dress up.  She loves dinosaurs and dragons.  She loves our dogs.  She likes to "make" food for us to "eat".  She likes having her nails painted.  She is smart.  She picks up on things so quickly you have to watch what you say.  She likes motorcycles and four wheelers.  She is learning how to spell her name and the correct ABC's.  She can count to 20 when she wants to.  She is learning to tell time.  She is learning the days of the week. She loves church and learning about Christ.  She has a great imagination and comes up with the silliest stories.  She wants a big brother or sister... how that's going to happen I dunno.  She is warming up to babies.... one yr old are more fun.  She is an amazing helper- she loves to do dishes, dust, clean the bathroom, baseboards and doors, feed the dogs and take them for walks.  She is our little Jungle Baby.
 She loves fruit and juice.
She loves swimming and water.
She loves climbing in trees.
She loves to be barefoot.
She loves to be outside.

So we had a Safari themed birthday party for her on Saturday the 27th.  We BBQ and had smores for dessert. But I also made cupcakes so she could blow out the candles.  She likes anything with sugar so we were OK with smores.  Plus roasting marshmallows is always fun for kids.  The kids decorated visors before the party and then after they painted masks.  Boys had Lions.  Girls had Elephants.  We had so much fun.  I hope that everyone else did too! Your thank you cards are in the mail!! Happy birthday Sweetheart.

















With that said.....
 My baby girl isn't a baby anymore! I know I said that last year but it is becoming more of a reality to me.  And it makes me sad.  I love having her home with me (most of the time) and enjoy our time together.  I don't know what I am going to do when she is in school full time in 2 years!  The thought of her starting preschool next month brings tears to my eyes. It is so bitter sweet.  The 2 hour break, 2 times a week will be nice "me" time, but it also means she is growing up and needing me less.  If we aren't able to get pregnant again and she is our only child what will be my purpose once she starts First Grade?  Our house isn't big enough to need cleaning everyday and it's hard to find a job during school hours only so what will I do with my time? I guess I could start massaging again (which I love doing!) But that means gaining clients (which I already had but referred to my friends when I was pregnant) and that is hard in a small community like Pocatello where there are already sooo many great Therapists.  Maybe I will go back to school.  I was thinking maybe cosmetology so I could do Massage Therapy and Facials?! I dunno.  Would that even be a good idea?

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Let's Get Together Yay Yay Yay!

Over the weekend we got together to celebrate Al and Carole Clark and their family.  It was fun meet some of Jordon's family that I had never met before and to see those that I did know again.  We met in Lava Hot Springs.  We went swimming and ended up meeting up with almost everyone!  We all surprised each other there! It was so fun.  Then we went to eat lunch.  It was delicious! Fried chicken, fruit salads, and yummy desserts.... I ate so much! then we headed back to swim for the last 2 hours it was open with Hadleigh and Mya.  I am so lucky that I married into such a fun family that I get along with so well!!!

Jake came into town for the reunion and he brought a surprise!  He brought his girl friend Haley.  They are so cute together!  She lives down in St George and goes to school in Cedar City. Hadleigh loves her and Jake of coarse.  It was great to meet her... I just hope that we didn't scare her too much!  It was great seeing them 3 days in a row!!!  We need to plan a trip down to St. George soon to see them again... before maybe an exciting announcement is made!!!

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Getting Healthy, Let me explain my "diet"

I started a "diet" back in May just b/c when I would look at myself in the mirror naked I didn't like what i saw.  I was picking myself apart and calling myself fat.  One day I heard Hadleigh say she was fat and it knocked the wind out of me.  She isn't fat. Not at all! She is GORGEOUS! She is STRONG.  She is PERFECT! Her little body is all muscle and I love it.  I decided when she said that, that I needed to change mt life for the better for myself and for her.  I want her to know she is perfect and never doubt that.  So I started working out everyday in the morning and at night.  Don't worry, I'm just doing body weight exercises like push ups, crunches, jumping jacks, reverse crunches, burpees... you get it.  I haven't seen a huge change but I know my body is changing b/c pants that were a little snug are now fitting perfect! And my cellulite on the back of my thighs is almost gone.  The best part is that it's become a family thing.  Everynight we work out as a family and it is so fun. I love watching Hadleigh do jumping jacks and planks and donkey kicks.... not perfect but so cute and pretty good for a 3 yr old.  I just need to start running to really see some slimming results but I HATE running! Plus I dont have an inhaler for my asthma so I am kinda nervous to start.

I do drink slim fast in the morning b/c I am not a breakfast person at all but to jump start my metabolism I drink one in the morning and sometimes at night if I eat really bad at lunch.  I try not to eat out very much or drink too much soda (need to cut that out) and I try not to eat past 8pm.  I have been calling it a diet but really it's a life style change to be healthy.  I don't want a "thigh gap" and I don't want Madonna Arms and I don't want to be a 2X4.  I want to be like Jennifer Lopez, Beyonce, and Carrie Underwood.  I want to be healthy and a little more defined.  I want to be confident and stronger than I am now.  That's why I'm doing it. To be healthy,  strong, confident and feel sexy.  I DO NOT want to be skinny. I WANT to be stronger.
Let me know if you have some secrets to stay motivated and how to switch up your workouts.

Schedule:
Mon: Arms, Back Nightly routine
Tues:Legs, Abs Nightly routine
Wed: 5 10 15 from pintrest Nightly Routine
Thurs: Arms, Back, Nightly Routine
Fri: Legs, Abs Nightly routine
Sat: 5 10 15 from pintrest Nightly Routine
Sun: Rest

If I miss a day I just start on the day that I missed and go from there and workout on Sunday to make up for it.  I figure it's not at a gym so it's ok and it bonds the family so we are ok doing it...

Sea to Shining Sea

The 4th of July week was great! Actually the first 9 days of July were great! Here is a break down of what we did.....
1-2 Jordon gone on a guys vacation with Spencer before his baby came.  Girls at home cleaning!
3 Jordon work only 10 hours and not 12!!
4 Up early, breakfast, parade, lunch at my Dad's, Blackfoot for fireworks
5 Up early, Hogle Zoo
6 Sleep in, lazy day. Blackfoot Pride Days, see Maugers
7 Church, Dad's for dinner, hot tub
8 Jordon School, Rent Movies, Walk
9 Jordon School (passed his class!!) Jordon work outside, YW

Now we are back to our normal schedule of 3 on 3 off 12 hour work days and trying to figure out what us girls at home are going to do.  We sat in the hot tub yesterday and pulled weeds and did laundry and napped while we were in a power outage.  Today we are folding laundry and putting them away and hopefully wedding more and maybe get lunch.  Tomorrow who knows! Probably grocery shopping and swimming... we will see.

Saturday, May 25, 2013

AAAHHHHH!!!

It has definitely been longer than a week.  Let me give you the run down of the past month (almost).

April 27th we went to Idaho Falls for my Dads 56th birthday and Kai's 17th birthday!!! Can believe that they are both this old?! I can't! I'm going to be 27 at the end of this year... I am so old too!!! Then we stopped in Blackfoot to see Jake since he came into town.  It was so fun!  We went back up on Sunday too.

May 3-4th I went by myself with my MIL, and 2 SIL on a girls weekend to SLC for a shopping trip.  It was so nice to get away and spend time with some other grown ups.  Mya came too but she does really good with "grown-up" shopping.  We got to see Jenny and Jay Miles.  We love them lots! Jay took us out to dinner even. It got a little hard being with 2 pregnant women though since I would have been about 4 weeks from popping before the miscarriage.

May 12th I went to my parents for Mothers Day.  Jordon had to work so it was bittersweet. I had a nice time being with my family though.  I got spoiled a few weekends before with SLC so it was ok.

May 15-16th My cousin came up and stayed with me.  We just talked and talked and she zoned my feet and I massaged her back.  It was nice to have Kelli up for a few days.

May 17th- 18th One of mt best friends Kyle was in town for our friend Steve's wedding.  I got to see him Saturday and he took Hadleigh and I out to lunch.  I also got to see some of my favorite friends from college Mark Cowman, Joe Fouts and Nick Morrison.  We hung out like everyday almost until I graduated from the massage program and ISU got rid of the mens golf team.  They were all golfers except Joe.  Joe is like a genius and went to BSU after their Sophomore year at ISU.  He makes helicopters. Yeah. Genius. Joe and Mark went to high school together.  Anyways, we all met our freshman year and have stayed pretty close.  Kyle and I actually have been closest of all.  If he gets married he wants me to be his "best maid".

May 19th We all went to Jared Ericksons homecoming.  He dated my sister for 3 years before his mission and they wrote most of his mission.  They are just friends now but I am so proud of him.  He is an amazing young man now, not like my annoying little brother anymore.
Then we went to Blackfoot after we dropped Jordon off  in American Falls for a 4 day training in Boise.  It was Venus's birthday so we celebrated up there with her since J was out of town.

And here we are! Busy busy busy!!!

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

It's that time again!!

Sorry I haven't been blogger more than about once a week.
Life has been stressful for me. I still have my health problems going on, there are some family things going on that are stressing me out and then with my new phone I can fb and pin so I forget to get on the computer to blog.  I do apologize though.

So for this Confession Wednesday I think I will make a funny one.
I am a nerd.  I love Harry Potter.  I love vampire movies. I love Star Trek... especially Data!!
But most of all I love love LOVE Werewolves.
I want them to be real.
I want to find one.
I want to see one.
I want to be one!

Like, this is an obsession that started a long time ago.
I saw Teenage Werewolf with MJF from the 80's and it changed me.
One night when I was in high school I was riding with my mom and sister and we were going home and the moon was super low and beautifully full I looked at it and said, " Man I wish I was a werewolf.  Look at that moon."  Then I looked at my mom and sister and we all busted out laughing.
But I was being honest.
It was bright.
It was full.
The weather was perfect.
At that moment I really wished I was.

When it's full out and we are with my family sometimes they will bust out "... remember when Heather....."
At least I'm not the only that remembers!

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Confession Wednesday!!

Haven't done this for a while but I have some more confessions!! I know I know, weird!
Anyways, what should I spill this time? Maybe I should clarify on my last one.

I DO like people.  I just have a hard time making them friends.  I have hoards of aquantences, lots of friends, and a very special group of friends that I consider family.

Confession 2
I am horrible at keeping in touch with those friends I concider family.
I feel like they have busy lives and if I call them it will be annoying.
I was the only one with a babe for a long time and then,
I was the only stay at homer for a long time so I didn't want to bother them.  
Now some of them are SAHM but they live far away.
Now some of them are mom but have twins and I know 2 is way harder than 1.
I want someone to do stuff with but dont want to impose.

I love you mt friends and family!! I miss you! I want to see you and hang out and catch up and have our children be friends!!
So please if you are reading this know that I am here for you and always will be, even if I don't stay in touch.

Hearing the Prophets

I LOVE, LOVE, LLLOOOOOVVVVEEEE,
General Conference. 

I love hearing the Prophets speak.
I love feeling my Savior close to me as they do.
I love being able to show Hadleigh the Prophets.
I love having my prayers answered through the talks.
I love wearing sweats all day!!!

This is my favorite talk.  Read it. Watch it. Live it!

Our 3rd Easter

This post is late (as usual) but we had a great Easter Season.

For our 3rd Easter we went over to my parents house on the 7th.  It was Conference weekend so we didnt have a whole lot to do and we went over half way through the first session.  We ate carmel rolls and eggs for breakfast.  Then I came home and cooked some Ham for my parents and watched the last session.

After the session ended I headed back over to my parents with the ham in tow.  If you get in my car you will notice a little hammy smell.... the juice spilt in the outlander.  Sorry!!  Anyways, I went over and we had a nice dinner with 2 sets of missionaries.  My parents love having the missionaries over.  As long as I can remember we have missionaries over for at least holiday a year or more.  I love the spirit and good energy they bring into any home they enter.

All in all I am happy to celebrate the Resurrection of Christ but I am also happy I don't have to worry about Easter eggs for another year!!!

Friday, April 5, 2013

Our 2nd Easter

This year has been an interesting to say the least.  We seem to be celebrating Easter every weekend!! This past Sunday the 31st was the "real" Easter.  We got up early to get ready for church because my cousin Ean was giving his farewell talk at 9 am.  So we got up early, started getting ready and then Jordon hid some eggs for Hadleigh to find when we woke her up.  I finished getting ready and then we woke little one up.  She did not want to get up.  At least she didn't until she found out the Easter Bunny brought her a new dress and hid some eggs for her to find!! She got dressed in her new dress, brushed her teeth and hair and then she was off to find eggs.  She did much better this time compared to the Clark party.  After that we let her pick 3 eggs to empty into a bag to take to church.  We went to hear Ean speak and it was amazing.  He did such a good job and I know he will a great missionary just like his brother Dillion.  They will be out for a year together and then Dillion will come home and a year after Ean will come home.  I love thos Filiaga boys so much.  They are great examples to Kai and I am happy to be part of their family.

This next Sunday for Conference my family is doing their Easter breakfast and dinner.  I am so excited!! I love when my parents make dinner... or anyone other than me!!!

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Easter

I can't believe that it has been almost a year since I last posted pictures from our camera!! Cest La Vie!  This last week was a stressful one for me.  My body as you know was wiggin out, we had dentist appointments and I was deep spring cleaning my house in preparation for the Clark Easter Party.  This year we were in charge of the Easter party and I decided to host it at our house.  Grandma Venus has lots and lots of stuff at her house so I try to give her a break and have our holiday parties at our house.  She also makes lots of food for scheduled and nonscheduled family get togethers so I try not to ask her to make too much when we host.  I just know how stressful it is and I feel bad having anyone else stress out!!  Venus knew that I was freaking out and suggested that we do finger foods and have everyone bring something small to help out.  That was GENIUS!! For Thanksgiving I made an entire feast (mostly) and that wore me out for about 2 weeks so finger foods it was.  We made the main dish and then has everyone else bring stuff.

Anyways, with my blood count still really low I haven't had very much energy.  It takes alot for me to even get "ready" for the day not including getting Hadleigh ready.  I had to break up the deep cleaning into 8 days.  I started Friday the 15th with cleaning the walls, doors and baseboards and window sills.  Then it was blinds, organize Hadleigh's room, dust everything, then vacuum up stairs, downstairs and the stairs.  I then had to deep clean the bathroom which took a whole day since I had to bleach the grout on our tile floor. I took a day break to go grocery shopping for the rest of the month.  Then it was vacuum again!! Seriously, that never ends!!! Jordon helped alot by sweeping and mopping and vacuuming the couches the day of the party.  I did all the laundry too so that everything was clean.  We even washed the dogs bed, towels, blankets and water bowels!! Then about an hour before anyone came I sprayed everything with Lysol.  We were sick earlier and with a pregnant lady and baby coming I wanted to make sure that our house was sterile.  Spencer also has bad allergies/asthma triggered by animals so I wanted to make sure he could breathe.

It turned out great!  I had Hadleigh and Jordon help me fill eggs for the 3 kids to hunt the night before and I think that was Hadleigh's favorite part.  They hunted in the house since it is Second Winter here and then after about 2 hours of relaxing and playing they dyed eggs with the Dads.  I had lots of fun and I think everyone else did too!

I am very very happy though that our Holiday is already done for the year and next year we don't have a holiday til summer!!!

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

White as snowflakes.....

That's what the Dental Hygienist said to Little Miss. We went in for our first Dental Appointment, me in 2 years and Sassy Pants first!! We know that we were behind on getting her to the dentist but we just haven't had the money to get in.  I was nervous since it would be her first time and we were going to be going at the same time.  I took her portable DVD player, Rise of the Guardians , her White blanket and a cup of milk.  I plugged her movie in the next cleaning room while I got x-rays and let her take her white.  As soon as we got in there she was kinda quiet when the Hygienist started talking to her.  But as soon as I left she started talking up a storm! She stayed in there the whole time!  She even let the DH brush her teeth, do a complete exam, cleaning and a full set of x-rays!! She had no cavities and her teeth are a perfect shade of white!  She has lots of space for more teeth to come in too! I am so proud of her!  Now I'm not as nervous for her to start Pre-school.  She even got to wear these cool shades while she played with "Mr. Sucky" the sucker thingy after they rinse your mouth with water.  The light they use to look in your mouth is unfiltered so they have you wear glasses.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Blessings and Prayers

Since my miscarriage back in November I have been  having health issues and been trying to understand why.  This has me struggling with my faith and my testimony and I have been wondering about what I believe.  And if things that I used to know are really true.  It's been a trying time spiritually and every other way you can think of.
I keep asking Heavenly Father why I have to go through this.
Why can't I get pregnant again?
Why can't my blood build back up?
Why am I bleeding so much and for so long?
What lesson could I possibly be learning from this?
A lot of why this and why that.

In my head I know that this is a trial I must go through in order to become better and more like Him.  I just really don't like it.  It makes me heart hurt.  I feel like I was able to so quickly become pregnant with Samuel and Hadleigh that now I don't know why I can't.  Those other 2 were not expected nor planned and they happened like 2 months into having sex.  Now almost a year after having my Mirena taken out I still can't keep a pregnancy.  It's so confusing for me.  I prayed about getting pregnant last year that I would be at peace and know if it was the right time and my answer was yes.  After having that confirmation for me to lose the baby (which I am pretty sure was another little girl) was hard.  It took me a 2 years to become OK with the idea of becoming pregnant again and then BOOM heart break and depression.

I have been struggling with depression on and off and been trying to get out of it.  I know that I haven't been the easiest to live with and I am so thankful that my husband and daughter have out up with me.  They bring joy into my life and without them I know I would have given up.

Well these last 2 months have been really hard physically.  February I had my period for 16 days and 7 of those were super heavy with tissue loss.  It was very similar to how my miscarriage went down only I didn't pass out and loose everything all in 2 hours.  I spotted on and off from the end of February up until yesterday.
Yesterday I started my March menstruation cycle and it was pretty normal until last night about 7 o'clock.  I went through 4 super tampons in 4 hours.  If I didn't change at exactly an hour I would start leaking onto my pantie liner or the tampon would fall out b/c it was so full.  Then I started losing large pieces of tissue.  
I started to get nervous.  I didn't want to go into the ER again.
I didn't want to loose so much blood again.
I have developed anemia since the miscarriage.
Losing too much blood now could mean a blood transfusion.

Anyways, last night I was getting nervous.  I called my mom.  I texted our friend Cindy Syndergaard. 
After all that I asked Jordon for a blessing.
I was feeling light headed and shaky.  
That's what I feel before I pass out.
So Hadleigh and I laid down in our bed until Jordon came in to put her in her own bed.
I plead with my Father in Heaven for peace and for the knowledge to know what to do.  I asked that my body be healed and that I would feel His love around me.
I instantly felt calmer.
Jordon came in and gave me a Priesthood blessing.  
In it he told me that my body would be healed, that my Heavenly Father loved me and that He was proud of me.  He told me that my body would be healed and that all of this was for me to learn and to grow.  He said that I would feel His love and his comfort.  He blessed me that I would have the knowledge to know what to do.  I cried during the blessing.
All of these were answers to my prayers.  They were what I needed to hear.  
I felt the calmest I had in a long time.
I wasn't nervous.
I wasn't scared.
I knew that I would be OK.
I knew that I didn't need to go to the Dr.
I slept really good.

I am grateful for the power of the Priesthood and that I have a husband that is worthy to hold it.  I am grateful that the Lord heard my prayers and gave me peace and comfort.  I am grateful that Jordon was more than happy to give me a blessing.  I am grateful that through this I know that my Heavenly Father is with me and that He hears my prayers and that He loves me.  My faith is being restored.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

"These are my confessions..." Thank You Usher

Life has been busy and slow all at the same time.
Is that even possible? That is how it has felt.
On to the title...

I have been wondering what I can do to keep blogging on a semi regular basis.  It makes me feel better getting somethings out in writing (and then deleting) and this is a great place to keep Hadleigh's milestones/ hilarity recorded for later dates.  One day I am hoping to get really motivated and get each year printed out. So in order to keep this up-to-date I am going to do Wednesday Confessionals.  

Confession One:
As I get older I am starting to realize I don't really like people.  I mean I like people but I am more selective on who I talk to, who I hang out with, and who I feel is important in my life.  Growing up, I was the complete opposite practically.  I wanted to be friends with everyone, talked to everyone and thought everyone I knew was important.  
People are important. People are special.  People have feelings but I don't have to worry what all 6 billion think about or if they are happy with my choices.
I'm not rude (try not to be) and I don't wish harm on anyone.
I just don't want anymore friends.
 People  cause drama.  People are mean.  People are clicky and unfortunately, I have experienced a lot of this the last 5ish years.   I don't know if it is because I am fortunate enough to have an AWESOME family or the fact I hung out with mostly boys my whole life or the fact that I was way spoiled by my  jr/high school friends but I never really experienced stuff that I have since graduating college.


I hope that I didn't offend anyone and I want those of you who are my friends and family to know how much I appreciate and love you.  You guys are my rock.  You guys inspire me.  You guys bring me sunshine.  I am yours forever.  I will defend you, stand beside you, believe you until the end of time.  Thank you for loving me and for treating me the way you do.  I am spoiled.  And I love it!

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Five, Four, Three, Two, One

5
That is how long it has been since I first met Jordon.  5 years! We met over Presidents day 2 months after he got home from his mission.  It was sort of awkward but in the end it has worked out!

4
That is how many years we have been married! Our anniversary is on the 7th and we were lucky enough to celebrate together.  Jordon was supposed to work that day but he traded so we could be together.  We went to Chilis for an early dinner and then went to see Warm Bodies. We were going to go play indoor mini golf but it wasn't open til later and Venus was lovely enough to watch Hadleigh.

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That is how many years we have been sealed.  We were sealed in the Twin Falls Temple a year and a week after we were married.  For those of you who don't know I was pregnant with Hadleigh when we got married so because of that we were unable to get sealed/married all at the same time.  It worked out though after working hard to make it.  It was cool too to have Little Miss come in and sit on the alter with us.  She cried the whole time cuz my mom and I were pinning her hand in place.

That is the number of pets we have "collected".  We love them.  Even though one whines and one barks.  But they are perfect for our family.  The one that whines, barks very rarely and is cuddly and so good to walk and train.  In fact when we go on walks Hadleigh holds his leash and she helps me teach him new tricks.  He does however have 2 bad back legs so he is kinda touchy when it's cold.
The one who barks.. alot.. rarely whines! He is hyper and stubborn and lovable all at the same time! He is prefect for a playmate for Hadleigh.  They wrestle.  They run.  They sleep together... until I kick him to the kennel.

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That is how many children we have, so far.  Our little Princess is such a blessing in our loves.  She teaches me patience EVERY DAY.  She teaches me unconditional love.  She teaches me to be more "soft" and not so militant? I don't think that's the right word but I can't think of one better.  She is my best friend.  Right at this very moment she is sick with what I think is the beginning of the flu, and cuddling me like crazy!  I hate her not feeling good but I love the cuddles.

I am amazed at how quickly time has gone and how much fun it is!  I am so happy with our lives right now.  I am excited to continue down this road called life with these 4 beings in it!

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Ahh!! Its February!!

Well we had a pretty uneventful January.... i just need to post about our busy busy holiday season and ALL the pictures of 2012!! Sorry!

We are getting ready for the Super Bowl tomorrow!! Hadleigh is excited to watch some football, we are hoping with some of Jordons family if we can figure things out.

I want both teams to win!!! Its so bad... I will be happy either way!
Welcome To Our Crazy Wonderful life!